See This Is What I Am Trying To Tell You

"I realize nothing can truly be owned, so I choose to live more freely and fearlessly." — Vaibhav Datar

A few years back, I felt like I was reaching out. I was looking out. Seeing and checking every few hours. Looking back and feeling dejected for a reason, I now find very silly. I used to open with positivity and optimism and almost every time, came back dejected.

If you look at me 12 years back when I wrote my blogs, that was not the case. I wrote freely as nothing was on stake. I wrote as if I had to tell something but then something changed in between.

If you are wondering what I am talking about, then here it is. I am talking about constant social media check around how many likes, how many followers, what are the ratings, did people see it and if they saw, why are they still not liking it.

In that context, just to see, how many people are seeing my profile, I also took premium subscription all to satisfy one innate desire - external validation. Do people like me? Am I doing good? Am I part of the larger society. . Are people accepting me the way I am. 

Whoooof! that was a time and now is the time, when I realize it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter whether there are eyes reading this or not, it doesn't matter if people are liking the post or not. Because at the very core, I know this. Nothing of my life is going to change because of people liking or not liking my post.

It is only upon me to elevate my life. Things will come and go, but what remains with me is me. And my thoughts and my life and that's what matters the most. It is no longer 9 to 5 for me but a super Yes to is this helping me in the long run or not, is it building something good for the society, am I leaving behind some good thoughts to ponder or not.

Because, the reader is never you but through you. The reader is HIM, reading through you. Your subconscious mind is what matters to me. If my writing makes your subconscious skip a heart beat and say "see this is what I have been trying to tell you." then that's it.

I know then that I have done my work. So no longer external validation. If you are impacted because of something that I wrote, then I am ever so grateful to HIM for choosing me to write it. All glory to HIM and not me. I am just a server, dishing out beautiful dishes created by him. I am just a medium, the real hero is HIM.

I conduct regular meetups covering various thoughts and insights. It is here I get my inspiration from. People like you, who make that valuable difference to so many lives and thank God, for choosing me to do so.